09.05.09

Hey Readers. (if there are any.)
This post won't be very long. But i just had a really good feeling and needed to write about it. I have had so many ups and downs these past few months. And I think I made a leap today. In two ways. I am actually sitting here in my swimsuit and I feel good. I have heard countless times about the contrversy of Liz the supermodel, who is a size 14 and did a photo shoot for InStyle(i think) magazine. She looks beautiful, and real. And I guess that made me realize that I can look that way too. I think it just comes down to feeling healthy and okay with yourself. I always say i don't care what people think but when it came to my size I did. But i don't anymore. I really wanna start being healthier. I wanna work out a couple times a week and eat better. Im in college so I'll always have those slip ups. But I want them to be just that..minimal slip ups. Things that can be controlled and that are not a part of my daily eating routine. I really want to be okay with my curves and my body and actually sizes aren't a big deal. I mean it's just a number. So, I really want to keep progressing with this.

Also, Im really starting to believe that there are other people out there. Other people that care about my well being and actually are genuinely interested in what's going on with me, and how I am. I have made a couple good friends at Kent and I love it. And when I say a couple I really mean like 2-3. This campus is so huge but again, the size of this campus does not reflect the amount of friendships youll make, but just the amount of opportunities that are out there. I just really like the few friends Ive made lately and I appreciate them. So if you read this, although you don't know who you are. I thank you. :)

All right thanks for reading.

//LauraelizabetH.