07.23.09

Hey everyone, (if anyone is even reading this)
I haven't blogged in awhile. I don't know exactly why. I think I just have so much going on that I have decided to keep private. It takes alot of courage to express deep emotions to people that you may not know. So on that note, I think I will save it for another post.

On a lighter note I am really getting into this guitar lessons. Im playing songs that I have envyed for years. I mean Matchbox Twenty, Goo Goo Dolls, Tonic, Lifehouse..classic, classic bands (at least in my era). So yeah, I'm actually being taught the chords and learning the strum patterns. It's making my music dream/career a little bit more real. I keep asking myself can this really happen? When I write a song I believe that someone else in the world has to relate to my words. Right? I mean, I can't be the only one going through all of these good and bad experiences. And if I am, then I'm more than happy to share my experiences with everyone. I just hope everyone becomes supportive.

I'm really trying to decide what city/state I want to move to in a year. So far, my options are New York, Philadelphia, stay in Ohio but move to Columbus or Cincinatti, possibly even California. So I have some options..right now I'm leaning towards NY. With the career I'm striving for and my music career I really think NY would just open up a million doors of opportunity. Plus Kendra & Brye are there. :) Which is a plus. So I have a year to decide and narrow my options down, I just honestly can't wait to graduate.

Graduate. wow, it's finally my turn to say that.

Well, I know this is kind of short compared to my other posts...but I'm in the process of cooking some dinner. Tacos!

Enjoy your night everyone (again, if anyone reads this!)

//LauraelizabetH.

07.06.09.

Todays going to be a bit straight forward. A little in your face. Because that's how I'm feeling today. Have you ever had so much passion about something it almost makes you angry? And not seriously angry where it could cause an argument. But a type of angry that will allow your heart to race and veins to pop and voice to become hoarse when speaking about it? Well I have. And mine is with singing. Sometimes, I get this gut feeling that the reason I can't stick with one job or aren't 100% percent satisfied with my major of choice..is because what I'm here to do is sing. To pour out my feelings to the world with no boundaries and let every single person out there know..that you. aren't. alone. I have had so many sleepless nights thinking that I'm the only one out there..and then I hear a song and somehow I believe everything will be okay..simply because I'm not alone. I want to help people, it's in my personality..it's what I truly believe. And my music could do it. And so, I have started guitar lessons to be able to pursue it. I have had this empty feeling in my stomach for so long..and this past week it hasn't been as deep. And the only thing that's changed is that Ive started guitar lessons. Music is my life. And although I have huge stage freight I'll overcome it like every other fear that I write about. If I was speaking about this to someone in person my mouth would be dry from run on sentences and from a build up of passion overflowing.
I just wanted to blog this quickly before I run out for the day. Live your passion. It's what we're here to do.


//LauraelizabetH.